tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-72783439423945082312024-03-14T05:55:50.796-04:00brain thoughtsleahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.comBlogger187125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-46339311918385666372013-12-13T10:04:00.000-05:002013-12-13T10:04:14.256-05:00I was in a very large pool with some friends and family and strangers. We were swimming around and saw there was something swimming under us. I went underwater and saw it was a whale coming right for us. We were in its path and I swam out of the way just in time for it to breach. At first everyone seemed scared but then we realized that the whale was friendly and didn't mean us any harm. There were three whales - the mom and then two smaller whales. One looked like a mix between a seal and a whale and one a mix between a dog and a whale. The dog one was wearing hiking boots and hiking socks and was super clumsy and sometimes got out of the pool to splash around. The whales would swim around you and with their energy let you know that you could swim together in circles with them. I got to do this with the seal whale and we went underwater and swam around together just the two of us. It was really special. I could see better underwater than I could above.leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-27007509244899351232013-12-13T09:59:00.003-05:002013-12-13T09:59:52.554-05:00I was nighttime and I was somewhere camping with a group of really bizarre people. Bizarre in the way that none of these people would actually be together, but it was still nice. Like Lauren Markely, Ethan, these girls I was friends with in Colorado, other people from other camps that I worked at, Courtney, some of her friends from the wedding, etc. We were all outside having a campfire and someone started singing - we didn't know who it was, because looking around you could tell it wasn't anyone that we were with. I started looking around and then I started noticing all these lights in the trees above our heads, they weren't glowing as bright as light bulbs but they were more like orbs of light. At first it was super blurry, and there was this hot summer wind that was rushing around us, so if you didn't know any better, you would hear wind and not the singing. I couldn't see any of these lights in focus, but people that were outside with us started noticing too, and the singing got louder. Then I realized that these orbs weren't just orbs but they were angels! Angels from heaven and we were really nervous because obviously we had never seen anything like this before, but they were so beautiful and the song was THE MOST BEAUTIFUL song I've ever heard in my life - everything sounded so perfect, like you had never before heard true singing until right then.<br /><br />Then they were no longer in the trees and they were in front of us, on the ground. Just right there. And I started looking at them, and most of these angels I didn't recognize, probably 80 percent I didn't recognize, but out of the 30 or so angels that were with us, I saw my friend Josh from highschool, this other boy Timmy that went to my highschool, Austin, and my grandpa. They all looked exactly like I remember them to be, but a lot happier, and I remember getting really sad and super upset. I started crying and then this one angel came over to me, a girl that was wearing this really pale blue dress with long sleeves and had long brown hair. She listened to me explain how I was really happy that everyone was there and that I knew people from my past were comfortable and safe, but still felt sad that they weren't with me because I'm selfish. She touched my shoulder and said she understood. Everything went blue around me, and as she was talking to me I felt at peace and somehow knew that everything would be okay. I looked around and the angels were talking to the other people I was with; laughing and talking and just hanging out. Then they said they had to go and they were up in the trees again and they started dimming out of focus just as how they came.<br /><br />I went inside to this house where we were staying at. And for some reason there were parents everywhere, at least my parents and alexs parents, and I wanted to find him and tell him what I saw but I knew I would get in trouble if I did. One time I went over to Alex and he were halfway talking in your sleep and told me that he had three steaks for dinner that night.leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-87686401736795359592013-12-13T09:57:00.001-05:002013-12-13T09:57:51.380-05:00i had a dream last night that i lived in a city and at one point a few months back, part of the city fell underground and no one knew why. there was a circular hole that was on a small hill where buildings used to be, about a block in diameter. no one really investigated it because there were always very loud noises coming from the hole, it sounded like a railroad or a large construction site with tons of screetching and whistles, and engines blasting. everyone in the city had become accustomed to the hole in the ground, until one day when it started getting louder and louder - you could hear it across the entire area, and when you were up close, it was so loud that you couldn't hear yourself think, it really became the only noise in the city.<br /><br />everyone moved out, all the visitors left and only a few people our age remained, probably about 50 or so. the sound lasted only a few days or maybe it was just a few hours, but it was almost unbearable. the people that were left including myself were running past it one night in order to get home, and then all of the sudden this terrible noise shot out of it, so we all stopped and covered our ears.<br /><br />MILLIONS of strands of string and rope came shooting out of the hole each with a different size balloon on the ends of them. the strands weren't normal balloon length but probably 10 times that, some even looked like they were hundreds of feet in the air. and the size of the balloons varied from small to ones as big as my room! it was really cool to see, especially because it was at night so it was hard to tell at first what they were. they looked like giant lollypops shooting out of the sky. everyone was amazed and then, slowly the buildings started to raise up out of the ground again. inch by inch.leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-25166677243271804982013-12-13T09:53:00.001-05:002013-12-13T09:53:28.776-05:00i had a dream last night that i lived in a city and at one point a few months back, part of the city fell underground and no one knew why. there was a circular hole that was on a small hill where buildings used to be, about a block in diameter. no one really investigated it because there were always very loud noises coming from the hole, it sounded like a railroad or a large construction site with tons of screetching and whistles, and engines blasting. everyone in the city had become accustomed to the hole in the ground, until one day when it started getting louder and louder - you could hear it across the entire area, and when you were up close, it was so loud that you couldn't hear yourself think, it really became the only noise in the city.<br /><br />everyone moved out, all the visitors left and only a few people our age remained, probably about 50 or so. the sound lasted only a few days or maybe it was just a few hours, but it was almost unbearable. the people that were left including myself were running past it one night in order to get home, and then all of the sudden this terrible noise shot out of it, so we all stopped and covered our ears.<br /><br />MILLIONS of strands of string and rope came shooting out of the hole each with a different size balloon on the ends of them. the strands weren't normal balloon length but probably 10 times that, some even looked like they were hundreds of feet in the air. and the size of the balloons varied from small to ones as big as my room! it was really cool to see, especially because it was at night so it was hard to tell at first what they were. they looked like giant lollypops shooting out of the sky. everyone was amazed and then, slowly the buildings started to raise up out of the ground again. inch by inch.leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-6466682518993996472013-12-13T09:52:00.001-05:002013-12-13T09:52:39.852-05:00i was driving around in fayetteville, but i wasn't actually driving i was in a convertible in the back seat. there was a giant turtle fighting a bird ahead of me in the sky. the turtle killed the bird and also it ripped off its wings kept on flying. i thought, wow that's really messed up i should get home quickly.<br /><br />when i got on my street i realized i wasn't in the car anymore, but actually floating home. i looked behind me and realized that the turtle was coming at me, gaining speed as he came closer. he looked super mad at me and kept going faster and faster directed at my head. at the last second i ducked my head and juked the turtle and as it passed my head i smacked the shell. then it crashed into the ground, split open and all this jelly came out. i felt bad for one second until i realized that my mom had left groceries on the front step for me and the entire bag was full of Udi's cinnamon raisin bagels and then i felt pretty cool.leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-90793317880281937522013-12-13T09:51:00.004-05:002013-12-13T09:51:27.065-05:00at the beginning of my dream we were at a plot of land. Alex and i visited a lot when we were at school. we were super young in the beginning of my dream, like 18. and there was this HUGE tree that was at this place that we always visited.<br /><br />there was a pink flower that looked almost like it was made of felt and it was a circle in the middle with four long skinny pink velvety leaves that were probably 5 inches long and only about an inch wide at the most. we visited fairly often and noticed over the years as the tree grew bigger and taller, the pink flower would die where it was and then grow again a few feet taller on the tree trunk.<br /><br />so we came one day once we were older, probably like 28 but i still felt like myself right now. you were really excited and couldn't wait to show me. the tree kind of looked sick and unhealthy, but Alex said it was okay when I was nervous. then all of the sudden, all the old places that the pink flower had been unzipped and the tree sort of shifted on a diagonal so it was standing up straight. the pink spots shifted and made this huge knot in the tree and it hollowed itself out and created this window that looked like stained class, but it was really just all made of wood and little branches. it was really beautiful.<br /><br />He got a grin on your face and said well! come inside! so we went in and it was SO COLORFUL AND REALLY REALLY REALLY beautiful. the layout of the house itself was basically on one floor but every room was a few stairs different than the others so they felt like separate compartments of our house. i remember going in the kitchen and it was pretty small but we had a HUGE fridge and a HUGE area to hold all of our fresh produce. both of these appliances took up a wall together but i didn't mind because Alex said it was a good investment and everyone agreed. the walls in the house were really rustic and the ceilings were exposed wood beams. in each room there were certain paintings on the walls like and one specific one i remember seeing in the kitchen near the table was probably a foot up from the bottom of the wall and was more like one long verticle rectangle with little sections in squares coming off of it? really colorful dots and markings kind of like that drawing by eva hesse i like.<br /><br />we went into one of the guest bedrooms and the door was shorter in height and when alex opened the door right above the door was a picture of a circle cartoon boy yelling and then diagonal up the wall towards the ceiling was a train comic coming out of his mouth with a sentence from dr suess i'm not sure what it said, the room walls were hardwood floors and each beam strip was painting light blue (this room is hard to explain). the room itself wasn't a square or a rectangle it was an odd shape and the ceiling also wasn't flat, it went up. its like he had designed this room AROUND the drawing, it was really neat.<br /><br />i liked all the rooms we saw and then alex brought me upstairs to our room, which was a loft overlooking the main living area. there was a lot of natural light because there were so many windows in the house. we had a GIANT (queen sized) bed which was kind of low to the ground and had navy blue bedding on it. all the blankets were blue. there was a red carpet underneath the bed, which made the bed pop! but the carpet wasn't in the whole room. there was what looked to some as a walk in closet attached to our room, but it was actually just for things that we like a lot, no clothes allowed. so it was like a little treasure chest of goodies. there were magazine racks full of old maps and prints from contemporary printmakers and photographers and artists that alex had been collecting for us. the maps were really neat, it was like he went to every thriftstore in the world and found all the fold-up maps from ALL over and it was so nice.<br /><br />we sat on the bed and i said i like this room the best, and alex told me that he made it for us to share together. and i couldn't believe how nice all of it was and how perfectly grownup but still young and youthful it all was. it was really really magical and special and i was so happy and proud of you.leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-20212755485769571182013-12-13T09:43:00.002-05:002013-12-13T09:43:24.227-05:00I was in Australia on a walk-about tour by myself and everyone was say that I should go swimming in this river where the sheep graze, so I did. The river was really quiet and just like a babbling brook so I kept swimming down it. The sheep were swimming too and I said out loud to one of them, 'wow this is such a shallow river'. As soon as I said that I saw that the river ahead of me was darker and faster moving so I knew it was getting deeper. The sheep looked nervous and frightened but the water was moving too fast for us to turn around. I saw some sheep struggling the further the river went and I passed them as the water pushed me. Then it was like I was on a water ride at an amusement park going around corners and down huge slopes the water was faster and faster and I saw dead sheep under the water. There was a wooden railing on one of the sides so I swam to that and tried to hold on. The river was leading me to a cave and the sky was getting darker but I could notice that the wooden railing at this point was actually raw lamb meat that was the same thickness of the wood beam. It was so slippery I couldn't hang on and I was so disgusted but I knew I had to use it or else I would drown. The river lead me to an elaborate room with beds and a dining room table and marble statues. I got a bad feeling i my stomach and saw that the cushions and the couches and the blankets were moving because they were stuffed with live snakes.leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-82517572250173002992010-12-21T18:31:00.001-05:002010-12-21T18:31:34.873-05:00freak<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; border-collapse: collapse; "><div>i was up in a really tall building and this girl and i were having a sleep over. she took a pill before bed and then (like the man in that one joke zombie movie we watched maybe a month ago) she grew another head out of her neck and then it split into another person right beside her. there was a good one and a bad one and i knew that in reality neither was fully good or fully bad, they were both bad. so i felt really unsafe and i ran down the stairs and out of the building. i ran to my middle school and into the first floor bathroom because i was going to throw up but then i realized i ran into the boys bathroom. so i held the vomit in my mouth and ran down the hall into the girls bathroom. and there were people in it, so i threw up in the sink. for like at least 2 minutes. but not like one throw up after another, it was like in team america where the vomit is just coming out of the guys mouth like a geyser. straight down into the sink. i could FEEL IT coming out of my mouth, feel the chunks. which is absolutely disgusting i know but i knew while i was sleeping that i could feel it coming out of my mouth.</div><div><br /></div><div>then there was another part where i was at this hotel with some guy who i knew was supposed to be my friend. and we had been friends for a really long time. but i didn't trust him anymore because i knew he was possessed by some sort of ghost or demon or something. i knew this because this small girl who was about 5 kept coming around every time we were in a group of people. but he never introduced her or acknowledged she was there. no one else could see her but me and him. he would do these really weird things like tell us all to get in the hot tub while he scratched everyone on the back with a chain saw. but NO ONE ELSE thought it was weird, they just thought it was funny. and i kept saying no, no thanks. i don't think its safe to have electric machinery in water. i knew he was trying to trick everyone into getting electrocuted. but every time i thought i caught him, he quit doing what he was doing and then everyone kept trusting him. and then sometimes the whole hot tub would disappear and so would the girl. but then at one point i tried killing him (my friend) and he got really weird and his voice went really low and he said I NEED TO SWIM NOW really slowly, so then we went to this other hotel place and there were all these pools and the girl came back and she was following me and i said this is stupid i'm waking up.</div></span>leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-29175648477743326442010-09-28T11:40:00.003-04:002010-09-28T11:42:17.290-04:00turnip rock, mi<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEivJdu4XTDz1I1oKX07zD_3LBe8TkHnr_g17awi11fJ9tk0pU6s87Ys0pkgPFhEPNaHGsXG9-cEO8Vy1Q_KWFfqF4GRDJg2wh41bs4arqFKr3gyMkljJEPEwIWH9Rad1UjyTRbwgJVWQ7_R/s1600/34737_436259098123_558048123_5321595_931762_n.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 331px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEivJdu4XTDz1I1oKX07zD_3LBe8TkHnr_g17awi11fJ9tk0pU6s87Ys0pkgPFhEPNaHGsXG9-cEO8Vy1Q_KWFfqF4GRDJg2wh41bs4arqFKr3gyMkljJEPEwIWH9Rad1UjyTRbwgJVWQ7_R/s400/34737_436259098123_558048123_5321595_931762_n.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5521989875599726594" /></a>mostly i've done things like this since i've been back in america.<div>it feels good to see wonder everywhere you go.</div>leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-1937479982472118982010-06-24T16:20:00.003-04:002010-06-24T16:26:13.908-04:00coming to americai have been back in the states for 4 days now. i have been able to sleep for a total of 9 hours since my return. it seems my body has forgotten how to function. this means no dreams. plenty of day dreams though. almost all are about going back to new zealand.leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-52169957921214286942010-06-18T17:05:00.004-04:002010-06-18T17:14:38.041-04:00reunionsi was standing on the side of my car leaning against it and had my feet up on the curb balancing myself. alex came around the side and he was wearing a red sweater. we said our hellos and then we turned around and were in a department store isle and he was showing me this chocolate bar that had my name on it. it was kind of bizarre and there was this piece that moved on the bottom of the package. he told me it was an optical illusion but i didn't get it, plus the candy was called the leelee which was just confusing. i looked over in the store and saw a group of people all wearing black outfits. then i saw my dad walk by wearing a red sweater. i told alex i would be right back and went to go say hi to my dad. he was carrying a deformed child and then handed it to someone and hugged me. he looked a few years younger and also a lot happier. there was a man standing behind him also wearing red. which i knew was my dad as well, but a much older more angry version of himself. he looked sad to see me, but more so sad for me to see him like he was. then the dad that i hugged said he had to go back to work but that i should find my mom. she came around the corner and was wearing a red shirt. she looked happy and shorter than i remember her. she told me that the ymca had started doing hot yoga and that she had done it every day for the last 7 weeks. i said get out of town !!! i wanted to find a place to do hot yoga when i got back mom! she took me into the class and it was really weird. there was pumpy music and everyone was dancing in a really hot room and doing yoga inspired dance moves, but it was definitely not hot yoga. but my mom looked so happy doing it i decided just to support her but also sneak out the door. then i went back to the mall and looked in the crowd to find alex in his red sweater sitting where i left him.leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-72887808336500355072010-06-13T19:44:00.001-04:002010-06-13T19:44:46.995-04:00hole in the rockit was one of those bible study parties that my parents always made us go to. we were all going to go kayaking at this place called hole in the rock. and it looked really beautiful, i could see it from where i was standing. it looked like everything was made out of cardboard, like we were on the set of a middle school production, except there were waterfalls and everything had moss on it. the sun was making the rocks shine purple. joe and i were going to be partners and each group got note pads that they could write on. i wanted to bring my camera but i remember thinking joe will probably tip us over and my camera will be ruined. so i brought the note pad instead. i was looking through it and i saw my own handwriting. and i remembered writing that in another dream i had a really long time ago. i showed joe what i wrote and then i flipped the page and i saw his handwriting. it was really neat and also a really weird feeling remembering a dream while i was dreaming. joe jumped off this rock and it all moved and i got that feeling that it was a prop for something again and we were hanging from the ceiling on strings. i'm not sure really. but the lighting was really pretty and i jumped off the rock too onto the cave thing below us and my foot landed in the water but it felt really good and i kept thinking this is going to be a really great day. then my dad gave me a camera that he found. he said it used to be my grandpas but he had dropped it. it was a disposable so i looked at how many exposures were left and it said 500. i took a picture of a muffin on the table and then i wound the film and it said 900 left. my dad wanted to take it back and throw it away but i kept playing with it and then the next time i looked it said 200 and then went back up to 500. it was fun though.leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-65344366864570361592010-06-06T16:41:00.002-04:002010-06-06T16:52:16.267-04:00retainer ini was back in the states and had just seen a lot of people that i loved. we were at some museum and i needed to get something out of my car or go up a few floors so i took the elevator. i got in the elevator and was looking at my feet just like always. i heard someone saying how is this going past floor 4 there are only four to begin with. and all we realized we were going through the roof and that the elevator was broken. everyone got nervous and a lot of people were panicking. the elevator started to tip to the side and i could see the sun setting over a city in the distance. the colors were really bright orange, reds and purples. i was thinking a mile a minute and kept saying please not today i just got back, i haven't even done anything yet. everyone in the elevator was praying and scared. then i thought if i am going to die, if i am really going to be dead i don't want to spend my last moments alive worrying and pleading. so i started saying thank you for this, thank you for that, the color of the sky is really pretty right now. some woman was holding my hand. then all of the sudden we were not in danger anymore. everyone in the elevator realized that it was part of an exhibit and after floating in this elevator for a few more minutes around the city we were returned to the museum in the same elevator shaft that we got in before.<div><br /></div><div>then i was in eastern hills and i saw katie and marlee and cried a lot. we were all hugging each other and we knocked over tables and chairs and ended up rolling around the ground laughing. and i said this is funny but i hope this doesn't really happen when its real because that would hurt.</div><div><br /></div><div>then i was in another museum on a field trip and i tried eating a colored pencil because it said it was purely made out of fruits and vegetables. but i got a sliver on my tongue and it kind of hurt and felt really weird at the same time. i told my teacher i didn't want to do media studies with my life so i got up and left the field trip and went sledding with no sled outside in the snow.</div>leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-10285208675675212112010-05-31T17:14:00.002-04:002010-05-31T17:27:18.382-04:00boring short onesi dont remember much of any of these but i feel like i had a million dreams last night.<div><br /><div>----<br /><div><br /></div><div>i was at school and we were having class in one room all together in the basement. i had tripped on something out in the hall earlier that day and broke my left wrist. i had a blue cast. my teacher kept giving me attitude and saying that i was a no good kid and the reason why i broke my arm is because i didnt care about school enough. i tried to stand up for myself but my teacher was giving me the silent treatment and i no matter what i said i just looked like a complete idiot.</div><div><br /></div><div>----</div><div><br /></div><div>i was in a grocery store with my mom and dad. we were all fighting and really hostile towards each other. my dad told me i couldn't go back to school in the fall because it was too expensive and food wasn't, and shouldn't be a necessity. i saw this one column of food and there was a piece of paper with my name on it. it was a letter that said i had received a scholarship from the school and all this food was free and mine so everything would be okay. i read it over 3 times to make sure it said what i thought it did. i tried to get my dad to come over and read it but he kept yelling at me and saying that i needed to grow up. and i couldn't get my point across and it was so frustrating. my mom came over and tried to get us to work things out but she wouldn't read the letter either and i was just completely upset and done with them. i tried to leave but my mom kept saying i needed to understand where my dad was coming from.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>----</div><div><br /></div><div>i was going to australia with friends and joe and i were supposed to be sitting near each other. my mom bought the tickets all weird to save money and when i looked at my ticket i was taking 4 flights to get over there, and each layover was an entire day long. so i would be getting there way later than everyone else. joe tried to get me some chips but they didn't have any at this one place and he ended up missing the flight. i was sitting in between two morbidly obese people and i could feel myself in real life being smooshed and uncomfortable.</div></div></div>leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-60552267172377772902010-05-26T19:11:00.003-04:002010-05-26T19:16:13.621-04:00music videoi was rollerblading down the street with headphones on and there was a song that was playing really loud. the lyrics were "i was a freaky dude, what can i say. mom did all my laundry, dad put them away. i was a freaky dude this much is true, blaksdjfasdfj asldfkjsdf"<div><br /><div> i kept thinking 'how did i not just get hit by a car at that intersection' every time i went through one without looking.</div><div><br /></div><div>the song was by marky mark and it was called 'freaky dude'. it was like a story about him growing up and rearranging his closet every time he got sick of it. and then when he moved out he still rearranged it sometimes for when he would come back and visit his mom. and then i saw the music video and it was like marky marks closet throughout the ages and i saw what kinds of clothes he had and one time he owned 30 grey hoodies that were all the same.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>i feel weird about this dream.</div></div>leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-31913265470779301902010-05-25T13:26:00.003-04:002010-05-25T13:33:53.570-04:00too much raini am laying in bed thinking about lamps.<div>and future bedrooms</div><div>and the importance of a desk</div><div>and old quilts that i hope get passed down to me<br /><div>and how love at its simplest form is equally as powerful and true as complex love.</div><div><br /></div><div>it is 5:30 am</div><div>i have a presentation in 4 hours</div><div>i should be sleeping.</div></div>leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-52506621484006440392010-05-24T18:37:00.003-04:002010-05-24T18:41:50.166-04:00whati was in someones house and martha stuart was there. but she looked like oprah winfrey, but i knew it was martha. my friend told her that the combination of butter and sugar was a great combination but all we had were peanut butter and eggs. her face lit up and she ran downstairs. i followed her to the basement. she had three HUGE tupperwares full of cookies and treats and when she wasn't looking i tried one and it was delicious. then i saw a dumpster full of rotten bananas being dumped into a lake and i didn't know what that meant. i went into a closet and found all these old art nouveau books. i tried to hold a bunch but they were too heavy. my mom told me to bring all the mattresses upstairs to throw away. there were 4. i tried to convince her that i would need one at school but then she said it would be okay and that the fruit bundle i had was rotten but i could get another one at the store. i looked down and she was right. i was holding a lot of different kinds of fruit and it was terrible and rotten and i had to throw it away. i was very upset and i couldn't stop saying ''the field trip is RUINED, MOM''leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-53813551893007486262010-05-24T18:23:00.003-04:002010-05-24T18:43:36.606-04:00warpi was in this cabin sort of thing with katie and alex and we were preparing ourselves to go outside. to the alternate universe. it is dangerous out there. gravity shifts without asking. each of us have jobs in the outside world. we go out the door. we are outside. it looks like one very large room and there is a ceiling and walls. everything is made of metal and has plastic nobs and buttons in different sizes. katie and i float heavily to this one cylinder and sit inside of it. we begin frantically pushing the buttons and colors light up inside of them. we are pushing the same ones over and over. alex floats down to us. he is wearing a spacesuit but no helmet. he is floating above us. his job is to push one specific button on the ceiling. he did it already. we decide to go back inside because our jobs are done. we're talking about this alternate universe with each other. wondering what we would be doing in real life at the very same moment. we find someone familiar and we sit down next to them. after a few minutes of talking to them about our new lives. they say '"really though, how high are you guys.''<div><br /></div><div>then our eyes adjust and we are sitting in a food court. and we are wearing plastic tubes and weird costumes. we realize that it is not an alternative universe at all and but actually a shopping mall. we laugh about it. a lot. because we are high.</div>leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-35637623614575781012010-05-20T18:17:00.004-04:002010-05-20T18:45:03.392-04:00halfway lucid<div>i was in a tower in my bed and when i went to sleep there were two of us but when i woke up there was only me with a note on my pillow that said. "went for a walk. as i'm writing this you are asleep and you are all pouts which makes me want to kiss you but i don't want to wake you up so i am resisting. look for me outside the window.'' i go to the window and i see him far away. i think oh thats about a 45 minute walk. but then i remember another way. i climb out of my window and look down. i slide my legs on the side of the house and slide down the tower. however i turn my hips very slightly i can change the way my body slides. i stay very stiff and float down the side of my house. raising my hips i float upwards over the hill and down left and right until i get to alex. he said he found a bunch of my friends that had been visiting. most of them left except one small boy who ran atop the hill towards the tower when a lion had eaten all the townspeople. i didn't know what that meant or anything at all but i went along with it.</div><div><br /></div><div>we met up with my friends in a field near a gas station parking lot. the survivors from the attack. they were talking about it all, being attacked and everything. i told them that sleeping outside is a dangerous thing unless you are in new zealand because there aren't any animals that are dangerous. jacob told me i didn't know what i was talking about because sleeping in the ocean is a very dangerous thing. i decided none of the boys would listen to what i was saying so i would go sit on a bench where emily and betsy and meghan were. i lifted my feet up and started soaring over to them. i found out the straighter i made my body the faster i went as well. i learned different things i could do to control the speed and movements testing them out in the parking lot and showing meghan who was really interested. i could get really close to a building and then lift my hip just a tiny bit and then stiffen my body and zoom around the corner of the building. it was a really interesting feeling.</div><div><br /></div><div>i flew over our tower and across the city and around a sports area, which was really busy so i decided to land in a seat so i wouldn't have to pay for a ticket but could still watch the game. i went down the stairs and saw that two of my friends were there eating candies from a vendor. i said hi to them, i looked behind the vendor and saw that there was a bookshelf. right about this time is when i realized i was dreaming. i almost woke up and i could feel my brains eye opening but i squeezed it real tight so i would remain asleep. i made up titles for all the books and i saw one that was blurry and i couldn't make out the title of it so i thought 'this book is going to have the title THESE DRUGS MAKE YOUR TONGUE SEE WORDS WHEN YOU LICK THEM" the book was really thick and i went through and tried to find a page with a photo on it that i liked so i could lick it. i could feel the weight of the book in my hands and i didn't like that so i put it back.</div><div><br /></div><div>i heard music playing and decided i would go and find out where it was coming from. there was a man in a small room playing a piano. it was a really nice song. i went down a level and there were two men in this room each playing piano. they were practicing for something. i decided i was bored in there so i went down the stairs and out to the smokers place and started to walk home. my friends brother said he was going to leave as well. we started walking along the outside of the arena. it was really dark and the gravel was fun to kick around. he was telling me about how his dad was a really good man but was a little off sometimes. we saw a cops headlights and stopped walking. then we started running. we ran out of the gate and a string of 8 or 9 flashy sports cars sped by us on the gravel. painted blue and red mostly. the drivers were doing donuts in the parking lots and playing chicken with each other and yelling out their windows at us. but i was not scared.</div><div><br /></div><div>we got home to this guys house and i met his father. his father was nice but his head seemed like he was in another place. i looked at him and somehow our brains connected for a second. i got an image in my head of these two faces merging together. the profiles were facing each other but a little off set. one mans mustache flowed into the other to take the place of the other mans nose. the second mans nose was where a mouth would be. then i looked again and the mustache was actually an eyebrow. the whole thing was like an optical illusion. and very hard to see. i realized that i was going to forget this image when i woke up so i tried to draw it on a piece of cardboard. the dad said it would ruin everything and tried to get me to stop. i left the room and decided to go swimming. after swimming for a second and then realizing i had to go to the bathroom in real life i woke up.</div>leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-84234185356676673182010-05-19T20:47:00.003-04:002010-05-24T18:44:07.123-04:00miss miss miss<div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 267px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiKDc-8Uii8q6FATdufRt9mP8XTLzoFbYHgvCf0aPYRjAfN9clBmwvahydHlt_ra4xhbOLXGrL0cKWYXkFKfBcgLDPNbOglMB0ydfO7zxtTEyi2ibByIxUg1CgBuj7fiwCaImYkrFvp52gE/s400/DX_11_2.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5473151292370043810" /><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div>leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-11151172998743766352010-05-19T20:44:00.002-04:002010-05-19T20:46:25.291-04:00vapour<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgAk3WXL2wgzqRlKMT65tj1bbVdskaNoMDY_jDXAcNpMI3egyDrvVXt5ZACyCtLe63TsHmYHTSmb3JdLlqqe_IldSgJoA3sr8Y-jP-pViWG9RThKlItQLVfcM8GhQfnNUkQkmm20dPSE4cm/s1600/IMG_0569.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 318px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgAk3WXL2wgzqRlKMT65tj1bbVdskaNoMDY_jDXAcNpMI3egyDrvVXt5ZACyCtLe63TsHmYHTSmb3JdLlqqe_IldSgJoA3sr8Y-jP-pViWG9RThKlItQLVfcM8GhQfnNUkQkmm20dPSE4cm/s400/IMG_0569.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5473146970813002498" /></a><div style="text-align: center;">textile design mood board</div>leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-40617619282658991972010-05-19T18:25:00.002-04:002010-05-19T18:27:43.559-04:00baconin a museum on a field trip. then we sat down and talked about art classes and being an art major. this girl who was a sophomore said that she was already in drawing 5 and i hadn't even ever seen her before so how was she that good. because last year she was not an art major and then she showed us her stuff and it wasn't even good and i was thinking 'this really sucks'. then sarah's boyfriend andrew came around and he was really nice and was holding a pig and petting it. every time he lifted his hand up he had a strip of bacon in his hand. and we all thought 'oh how nice, he is so kind to animals that they are giving him meat and no one gets hurt or anything'. also he brought two puppies with him and i thought man this guy is really nice.leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-35090128847753968242010-05-19T18:19:00.003-04:002010-05-19T18:22:12.005-04:00moon termi was at hope college and everyone was packing up to head home and go on may terms and things. this boy who i don't know was borrowing my car and i had to ask him if he would give it back to me but he started driving it in reverse really fast so i followed him. i had to hurry up because i was going to the moon with marlee for may term. we were so excited because it was really cheap and we got to spend the whole month in space except that i didn't know what to pack or anything. i had a plastic vacuum cleaner i was putting all this makeup in so that it would stay air tight compressed once we were out in space. and marlee and i were packing all of our clothes in space bags.leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-2867807917130716272010-05-19T18:14:00.002-04:002010-05-19T18:19:21.558-04:00gyroslizzy and i were the only people at school for a week and there was a cafeteria here and they served us gourmet vegan food every meal and we were eating like queens. Then everyone came back and they gave us gyros one meal and said that it was vegetarian but my whole entire thing was full of meat. So I went to the back bar and starting picking out the meat and trying to make the sandwich okay for me to eat. There were three dirty girls in the back and they were bullying me and one of them took my phone which was really high tec and tiny because i got it for christmas. it was smaller than a penny and i said 'be careful with that okay' and she started throwing it down on the table and saying 'yeah, sure thing' so i said no really stop doing that but i couldnt get the phone away from her because i had meat all over my hands. then i went to the table and sat down because i was nervous. i remembered i left my soda over by the table but my friend said i shouldnt get it because they probably roofied it.leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7278343942394508231.post-48947927516894991622010-05-11T18:24:00.002-04:002010-05-11T18:30:50.963-04:00meetingi was back in the united states. alex, eric and ethan were in a dinosaur museum and i was going to meet them there. the museum had 4 floors and each one the bones got bigger and bigger. i never made it to the 4th floor where they were supposed to be HUGE because i tripped over a wire and had to finish an art project with my teacher. then i went outside and i was near the street. and i saw alex coming out of the place and i walked up the steps to meet him with eric who left when he saw me. alex squinted in my direction because i was alone and probably looked different. i assumed he couldnt figure out if it was me or not. he were wearing a yellow jacket. or maybe i was. one of us was wearing yellow. when we got to each other i hugged him so tight. the tightest hug and neither of us said anything. we just sat down on the soggy snowy steps and held each other and my face was so cold. he kissed me but we both decided against it because our lips were as cold as icicles and it almost was too painful. so we just held each other tighter. then it started raining and we were going to go somewhere with everyone but i decided to walk there by myself instead of ride in the car with them because new zealand had made me really over the top green. so i walked through a restaurant because it was the quickest way to get there. i went under a table and through someone's legs and i could hear them talking about me but i didn't care. i was walking really slow because it was so windy and it was taking me forever to get across the street.<div>i saw my friend marlee and she was waving me over to see some girl that we used to babysit. when i was walking over to them i looked at another girl sitting down on a bench. she called me an idiot assuming i didn't know what the girl looked like after 10 years. i said of course i know what she looks like. i asked her what grade she was in and she said she was a junior. i said what are you going to do with yourself! she asked what to do you mean. i said you know, college and stuff. then a lady came over to me with a stern face and a slip or red paper that was a demerit. the reason issued on the card read 'false assuming child will become successful'. and i felt really bad and also noticed that i was going to get three points on my drivers license for that.<div>the next thing i knew i was in a house with this boy from my high school and i was making muffins with no pants on. eric and alex were talking in the other room, but neither of them ever came out i just heard their voices. and this kid who i never actually knew in high school and i were small talking and i kept thinking 'why am i doing this. i want to be in the other room, why am i in the kitchen right now." then i woke up because i was cold</div></div>leahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14226571344965292598noreply@blogger.com0