missed

i forgot to grab them when they were floating away

so i don't remember any this morning

but i did find that i took my socks off in my sleep last night

and threw them across the room

big wishes

i was sitting in a room with my two friends abby and sarah talking about how cold it was outside. there was a bunny on the bed sitting next to me. i kept picking it up and saying "look, i'm a bunny" i looked outside the window and there was snow everywhere. there was also a fox outside looking through the window at me. he was sad that he was outside in the cold and not inside under blankets with us. next i was holding hands with alex and we walked down these stairs and started making this huge bouquet volcano out of ripped up pieces of love letters everyone in the world had ever written. our hands were moving so fast making this. people kept coming up to me and saying my that is pretty. then i saw a video of myself in a coat and scarf. i remember saying out loud "in my dreams i own a yellow coat". the sound of my own voice woke me up.

the go getter

i had a dream last night

maybe you had it too

it could have passed through our feet.

dumb

i was taking all these stupid pictures of nothing with my camera and then got really upset because i remembered that it wasn't a digital camera and that i had just wasted a whole roll of film.

cool dream huh.

morbid

i was in a big kitchen at meijer, i think it was my job or something. regardless, i was there and we were making garlic cheese breadsticks to be packaged and sold. i was sitting on a stool. i didn't know anyone else there besides my friends adam and eric. only eric was a combination of two people- my friend eric and a boy i went to high school with named jeremy. i was talking with one of the other employees and i was thinking about how handsome he was. then he admitted to me that him and his wife are meth heads and if you do the percentages in small doses its not as dangerous as a drug as people give it credit for. i kept thinking wow, maybe this guy is right because his face isn't messed up at all, i mean, he's still really attractive. he said him and his wife just take a little before bed every night and its okay. then adam and eric started fighting and i tried to get them to stop but they had been fighting like this all day. i didn't know what to do and they stood up from their chairs and started pushing each other around. both of them whipped out a knife. adam stabbed eric in the leg but i didn't see that happen because there was no blood or puncture. then eric/jeremy duo sliced adam in the throat and it was so scary and there were pieces of skin on his little blade and i wanted to throw up. adam said it was okay and i held his hand and then all of the sudden his eyes got really big and he looked scared. eric/jeremy got nervous too and started whimpering, i kept yelling at everyone to call 911 but they were just standing there. i put adam on the ground and held his hand and yelled for help so loud and for so long. i think i freaked myself out in real life because i woke up really startled.

then i went back to sleep and i was in a car with marlee telling her about this dream i just had. she was sitting there listening and then she missed a right turn, but we were in the farthest left hand land so she cut a lane and tried to make the turn but we got hit by a car?

then i woke up again and i just decided not to go back to sleep because my dreams lately are really bothering me and i didn't want to have another one like that.

ow

we were at hope college but hope college looked different than we were used to, it was a different location. i think it might have been at a hotel. i was still amandas roommate. it was really hot outside i remember and i wanted to wear a dress but i didn't have any because i sold them all at my dorm sale. so i went into our mini walk in closet thing and said ''amanda what do you have for me today'' and i found this really cute dress that was a halter top and it was light pink and terry cloth and i said oh this will be perfect because we are going to the beach today/or swimming/or something. and then i went in the bathroom and tried to go but people kept walking in on me and there wasn't a lock so i said "i'm in hereee" in one of those sing song voices but what you're basically saying is ''get the fuck ou--outtttt" so then we went into this hallway and i saw amanda and said ''is this okay?" and she said "to be honest, no its not because the last week you've worn so many of my clothes and i really wanted to wear that today and i hate that you wear my things without asking me first." and i said okay thats understandable, i'm sorry but really--i dont have anything else to wear so just this once okay. and she said ''to be honest i really hate being your roommate" and i said "..cool"

then a bunch of us were outside, like our whole school and it turns out we had been on a weekend field trip somewhere and the busses were getting ready to leave. i realized i had to pee really bad before we left and so i went running through the hotel looking for a bathroom. i ran for about 4 minutes straight in my dream, jumping over people and turning corners, i finally found this one lobby where there were two family bathrooms. one said ''whites only'' and one said ''blacks only'' there had been a girl running with me this whole time and she went into the whites only bathroom and i said okay i hope i don't get in trouble for this. and went into the blacks only bathroom. then some lady opened the door on me and said ''girl what the FUCK are you doing in here'' and i said ''i know i'm not black, but i have to pee and i thought it would be okay because it was the only one, i'm sorry''

then we were back at hope college and we were on 14th street. and it was night time i remember because everyone was outside looking at the sky and it was purple and the stars were yellow and the moon was blue and it was really pretty. then i got a call from jacob on my cell phone and he said ''come over to my house. i really want to see you." and i said really? and he said yes i think its time we hung out. its been a really long time. and so i was all excited and i went over there and there were a bunch of dudes. i sat on that big couch with ethan and we were just sitting there watching everyone hanging out and it was really chaotic in there. i was wondering where jacob was because he invited me to hang out. i was getting kind of frustrated that i was there and he was not. then the door to erics room opens up and this girl comes out. brown hair she is probably like 5 feet tall, kind of pretty. and she does not have a shirt on and she has this HUGE scratch mark on her back from fingernails and she walked into the living room and slowly and casually put on this nude colored leotard and all the boys were like ''ooooo.....yikes'' and i looked back at erics room and saw jacob in there for a second and he was putting his shirt back on. and then ethan goes. "wait ...what the fuck is going on" under his breath and i wanted to vomit out my heart and jacob looked at me and said 'thanks for coming over i just wanted you to see that' i stood up and said I need to leave, this is all so stupid and dumb. where are sarah and abby. where are my friends. get me out of here. and all the boys were whispering. and i just felt so STUPID.

this dream sucked.

whoopi

i had a dream this summer that i went to see a dermatologist. and it happened to be whoopi goldberg. and i said wow yeah why are you this profession now, do you not get acting jobs anymore? i feel like you were reallly big in the 90s and then everyone forgot about how funny you were. she said girl, i know did you even SEE ME IN SISTER ACT 2, COME ON. and we laughed and laughed and she put this nice cold lotion on my face and no more zits

hm.

sleep talking is really weird

so is sleep farting